It isn't easy to allow the truth to sink down & penetrate my introvert, but it gets easier with practice. I didn't know in the past that I was rubbishing myself - I thought that the awful things I thought about me were the truth. God's truth wasn't allowed in 'there', where I knew the truth about what an awful person I was. Once I knew the theory about temperaments I started putting it into practice & catching those negative thoughts & assumptions about myself. It has been gradual progress over many years, but now I can look at myself in the mirror & gaze through the prism of God's unfailing love, & know that I am good. I can look inside myself & know that I am good because the Lord says so.
This doesn't mean that I don't have faults - far from it! But rather than putting all my focus on them, I am able to get them in their right perspective, and if I'm struggling to do that then there are good, kind, Godly people around me that I can ask to help me to re-evaluate using the Lord's true perspective, rather than my own flawed one.
Ouch! New and struggling but thank you!
Yes thank you, I had an experience the other day that illustrated the need to 'go to the root' and also Tim's talk this Sunday concerning God's hand upon us, hemming us in, behind and before. I was sitting amongst church friends, having a hot drink after a walk along the beach. I looked across at the row of faces opposite and felt more than in any other way, these folks are real, but in fact I'm not. I'm actually very small, whereas these folks are the right size. It was a strange almost physical sensation, but nevertheless very real. Fortunately I was able to talk about the feeling today and learnt that this was an accurate picture of how I feel about myself. This came as a bit of a shock, I've generally felt capable of knowing how I was feeling moment by moment, but to be faced with how I felt about myself was a new experience. The good news is, its not true ! I'm the same size as everyone else ! As has already been mentioned it takes time to get hold of this truth, but I'm looking forward to living in the truth of who I really am !
Thank you Kathryn and Cathy for those comments from your own experience. The more I talk to people the more I am reminded of the importance of this simple principle. Keep pushing on until the introvert is able to step forward and take the lead!
Thank you Lyn for your comment. Stick with it and your confidence will grow
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