This makes complete sense to me! I'd always associated my introvert as my enemy, the 'bad' side of me where all the pain and negatives resided but I'm gradually learning that, although there is a lot of pain there, there is so much more to my introvert temperament. I've had to process the pain that has accumulated there to enable me to see the qualities of my introvert and I think that will be an ongoing process - rather like de-scaling a kettle. I've always lived in the north of England where the water is lovely and soft and limescale isn't a problem - I'd never de-scaled an appliance until I moved to Suffolk! After a few months of living here I started to discover a gritty residue at the bottom of my coffee and a friend kindly explained how to de-scale my kettle, a process I now do regularly! Similarly, having discovered the richness of my introvert, I intend to keep it 'de-scaled' and free from the clutter of life that can cause it to become negative again by sharing what I think and feel on an ongoing basis.
That is a really good analogy Julie. As we 'reclaim the ground' within the introvert it is important to make sure that we share what goes on within us regularly so we keep 'descaled.'
This it seems is so counter intuitive compared to everything else that we do in life. If you want to be good at sports or a musical instrument or anything you must practice and work hard.
In knowing the Lord it seems the more you strive and work to gain favor and be the person you think you should be the more you miss the point. The work and the struggle has been done for you and striving moves you in the opposite direction from the thing you strive for.
It seems that all we need to do is remain mindful of The Lord's acceptance, love and affection for us. (At the time of writing I do not particularly feel that). None the less it is a fact.
When I was younger I remember a mature Christian counselling me that I should just keep 'looking to Jesus'. I had no idea what that meant. I think now it means as far as God is concerned we are loved and we are perfect. We can love him because of the sacrifice of the Lord, because he proved how much he loved us first.
It may take some time for that to sink in for me. It is hard to believe someone else loves you when your not to keen on yourself...even if it is God. None the less his love is apparent in Christ and the Church. Let the descaling of the kettle commence; or as Paul would have it 'Do not be conformed to this world[a] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may prove what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:2, RSV)
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